fuel

i close my eyes. my mouth is as dry as the sahara desert. i hear my own heart beating, erratically, i feel the blood circulating in a rush, im gasping for air, my lungs cannot obey me. i stand still, one second has gone by, im in the vortex. glued to the sidewalk, cant move, cant even think. im in the bubble. time is passing by so slowly......... its nerve-racking, its intense and it drains me. tryna surpass the metal taste in the back of my mouth, then it suddenly hits me: fear is the most powerful fuel ever in life. fear is an instinct, an alert, that something might go wrong. you get a rush of adrenaline to run, to escape, to set yourself free from whatever or whoever wants to cause you harm. evolution is crazy and humankind, crazier. somehow we still stand. but not for long. change must be welcomed. cowards run away from their fears, and if anything, im too tired of running away from it. nope. i wanna run towards it now. fuck it. imma grab my fear by the balls, stare it in the eyes and scream at the top of my lungs: i did it, motherfucker and you ain't gonna break me and i ain't gonna hide. i call the shots now. and if im saying everything will work out, its because it'll fucking work out. shit, that is freedom at its purest stages.






you should try it as well.