My fingers are numb. Ive been writing way too much. But you know, for some reason i havent been able to write about my feelings. Its been like that for some time. To be honest, i feel weird (i always do). It feels like nothing matters, none of it, its all a huge blur, and sometimes you get a kiss. 

All the expectation, all the wandering and waiting. It has forced me to decline any other type of emotion. I can only wait. Thats all i can and will do.

Slowly getting there.... i can almost taste my tears of joy. I can almost see myself there, thriving and being who I always wanted.

Sounds good right?

Odds are, the best thing ever in my life will also be the worst.