Die Welle (neun)

I can't breathe.
Water filling my nostrils
My throat burns
I dive into the emptiness

I drown

It all hits me like a flashback, somehow.
My childhood, my teens, my early adult life.
I contemplate the abyss.
Weirdly enough, it doesn't look that appealing anymore

I taste the saltiness of the water.
Life's too cruel, anyway.
Nothing can numb me enough
Time is the deadliest of poisons

It's happening again.
Let's go somewhere else, one more time
Is this the final blow?
I float on the water... I've made my peace with it

the waves swept off me of my balance
they've erased everything, again
this is not over, and it will never be
they come, they fight, they destroy, they corrupt. and it always ends the same way.

truth be told, it only ends once. anything that happens before that is just progress.