Through the looking glass

Its the beginning of the end, its a dead end and I know. I cant do anything, its just too much. I cant even breathe.
Sometimes I feel like Im falling. And I know theres no one to catch me if I do fall.

I close my eyes. I think its all going away.

But its not. Theres always something wrong, something broken and the saddest part is that I cant fix everything. 

I ride alone in the adventures of life. I close my eyes, I feel the wind kissing my face. Its the only good thing. I feel disconected. I feel drift apart. Will it ever change? Will I someday acompplish everything I ever thought Id accomplish?
Life's messy. Life's confusing, life is a bitch. But Ill get through it.
I always do.